insanity

Over the past 20 years, I’ve done my share of weight loss programs: Weight Watchers (a few times), Trim for Life, LA Weight Loss, Atkins, South Beach, The Zone, Diabetic Pregnancy Diet, and the Christian options of Weigh Down and First Place. I’ve discovered that they all work!

Go figure, implementing and following a healthy eating plan works! I can lose pounds, I know how. However, I have never reached my goal weight. I’ve either reached a weight I am happy with or gotten pregnant. Soon after, I revert back to my habits and then fall into my pit being held tightly by my stronghold. Food draws me. In the end up in the same place – pit dwelling.

I am praying for wisdom to address my issues of the heart on this journey. I want freedom. I want to live in my Promiseland. With Jesus’ intervention and power I want to stop the cycle.

One might wonder, what program is darci on to lose weight? I have asked myself this same question many times, thinking “I just need a program!” Programs are great for weight loss, accountability, and education.

Albert Einstein defined insanity as doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.

I purpose this journey to be different than the past. I must not do the same thing and expect different results. Since beginning this journey to wellness, I’ve asked the Lord for insight into my habits and insanities. I felt His strong leading to not do a program, but “do Jesus”. At this point, these are my directions….

1) Fill myself up spiritually by spending time in God’s word and praying.

2) Collect scriptures to battle. Write them on index cards and carry them with me. Speak them outloud as I battle my issues.

3) One meal at a time, make healthy choices. Implement the nutrition education I have from my many programs and the education as a Physician Assistant.  Eat minimal simple carbohydrates.  I can use my online food journal and calorie counter to help keep me on track.

4) Be active daily.

God has a different plan for each of us on our journeys. May we continue to seek His best plans for us.

What directions has HE given you?

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5 Comments on “insanity

  1. I’ve been reading your blogs on and off ever since you forwarded it to me this morning. It’s embarrassing but I too have a problem with food. You are definitely not the only one! Some days I can’t wait for the kids to go to bed and Chris to be in the shower so I could eat something I wasn’t supposed to or I’d be in the kitchen while the kids were having some t.v. time binging on junk food (twizzlers, chocolate cookies, etc.) This past Sunday my weight was 2 lbs. away from what I was at when I started LA Weightloss. I was depressed, disgusted and ashamed. I’ve been careful with what I eat and making better eating choices and have lost 4 lbs. I’ve done this before…many times…but fail and gain even more. Must be the Lord knew I needed some help and urged you to send this to me. I thank you for your honesty. You are a blessing!

  2. Hi Stacy! Thanks for being real girl and bearing your soul! I am encouraged by your words. I feel alone in this battle and rarely hear women talk about it. Thanks for commenting on posts where you can relate, keep it up. IT helps me, and I need to know I am not the only one crazy in my head and struggling.

    God’s been asking me to make this blog public, and I finally did. HE even used my delayed obedience to bless you in His perfect timing! I’ve heard from a few other ladies yesterday that it was in HIS timing for them as well. God-incidences! I am humbled.

    I am so thankful to have you on this journey with me! Keep me updated and keep making healthy choices. One meal at a time. Praying, reading God’s Word to fill the empties, and trying to make the best choices each meal.

    You go girl! You are beautiful.

    Darci

  3. Hey Darci you know I struggle with this too. I’m so proud of you for doing this and for being so vulnerable. I just read through your blogs quickly and already have been encouraged and challeneged! You’re awesome.

  4. We joke about weight/food issues when we get together as women…yet I think most women have these same struggles. I am reading “Beauty Lab” by Nancy Rue with my 10 yr. old daughter. The book is for 8-12 yr olds…yet the Lord is working on my heart at the same time. Wanted to share this…we need to stop believing satan’s lies and start believing God’s voice of truth. THis is from pp.14-16…..

    ***Remember the book is directed at 8-12yr. old girls***

    “You believe in God, right? You believe God’s in charge, yes? SO you agree all the things David says about God in Psalm 139 are true:

    God knows everything about you(vs. 1-4)
    God is everywhere
    (vs.5-12)
    God created your inmost being
    (vs.13)

    If you believe that, then you can say this right along with David….

    I praise You because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Your works are wonderful, I know that full well.” Psalm 139:14

    Fearfully, by the way, doesn’t mean like Frankenstein’s monster. It means awesomely. You were made to be awesome and wonderful. There it is, right in the Bible. God knit you together with love in every stitch. He thought of you and you became. And as David says, “How precious to me are Your thoughts, O God!”(Psalm 139:17)

    You are the result of God’s precious thought. How cool is that! Not some model agency’s thought, or a cool girl’s thought, or that boy’s thought….God’s thought!

    You are a beautiful person. Believe it!

    God doesn’t just want you to know you’re beautiful. God wants you to show it- Not by plastering on make-up or spending a bajillion dollars on clothes, but be shining from the inside. Jesus talked about that in His teaching.

    Each child is an original. Each one is God’s art. Each is priceless.

    And that includes YOU, Precious Thought. Your part is to uncover the beauty-inside and out. It’s a journey. Are you ready to begin?

    I am not an 8 year old anymore…and Oh, how I wish my mother read this book to me. But I think it is important remember that you and I are a “Precious Thought” from God.

    Some scripture that has helped me….(Read it to yourself all day long…the more you read it the more strongholds are broken!!!Even ones you did not realized you had…..***Insert your name in the Scripture***

    Jeremiah 29:11
    Psalm 6:3-4
    Psalm 62:5-8
    2 Corinthians 10:3-5
    2 Corinthians 2:14-15
    Psalm 18:1-3
    1 Corinthians 6:12
    Galations 5:13
    Romans 12:1-2
    Psalm 18:16-19
    Psalm 35:1-3
    Psalm 21:11-13
    Psalm 20:5
    Exodus 15:11-12
    Deut.33:29
    Psalm 31:14-17
    Psalm 139:23-24
    Jeremiah 33:3
    Ephesians 1:4
    2Peter 1:3
    Duet.6:5
    1 Corinthians 16:13
    Rev. 20:10
    Isaiah 53:5

  5. My recovery has been threefold-
    1.) God, God, God.
    2.) Celebrate Recovery materials/ 12 Step program work to educate myself about the addiction process.
    3.) Most recently, Weight Watchers combined with 3X’s per week at the gym.

    However, the most important part remains God. It’s not about making the food “behave”, or even educating myself. Self- awareness is not freedom- living every step of the way with God, is. I use the tools from those other programs as just that, tools- not solutions. For the only and best solution I have found that works is God. I am grateful for the tools, but not depending on them. I know that’s why this time is different. I am walking in the light of the Lord, leaving the results to Him, and not giving into fear and failure.

    Praise God, I know you can too!

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